It's So

This pain it's so hurt, so lost...
Even i can write any moan..

My heart damage

If i can change life's structure
If i can change my mind structure
It'll has differnt function
But an word or a phrase could make me defunct
Every phrase that you said kills me, kill me to be nothing
But from beginning i was nothing, and i'm still nothing
I try to keep up with you but it's vain youre too prestige...and i'm just a man that no one knows i'm exsist

Maybe better i just leave, go away, start new life from zero
We're not balance
I'm too beneath

I'm sorry
I just can't lose you
I'm not ready

SHE WIPES A TEAR FROM HIS FACE

SHE WIPES A TEAR FROM HIS FACE

And now i know she come for it
Deny the lie
She hire a house there far away where i don't know
She won't come back tonight or another night
Goodbye she said
She wipes a tear from his face

He shout too loud till i can't hear he's crying
And the only could is above
He said he needs the wish of falling star
He said he needs another towel to wipe another cry

Let her go and being what she wanted
Let her go and loving someting else
Let her go you just let her go

I mused and learnt something today, if i love someone i have to let her go as she wanted, as she wished
cause i'm nothing, ain't god, ain't lord, ain't king nor conqueror
i have no ascendency...
i'll try to live normally, to breathe normally, to do normally...
even there'll be a cry time, hollow time, hollow space, hollow heart...
i should, yes i should...as i'm nothing

SHE DOESN'T NEED

SHE DOESN'T NEED

Did you ever try to live without passion
And all is crumbling upon your face
Any butterflies hide behind your curtain
She tore the papper again

Time by time i know
She doesn't need any letter
She doesn't need poem
May i ask her"what does you need?"?
And she whispers "i need the meaning of you."

The sound's screaming in my head
She-have-No-time-to-make-me-last-forever
Maybe figures&numbers and any theories
Which will separate the unity
Try to keep up with you, catch up with you
But the sound of torn letter resound
It's hurt inside, i try to hold it on even pain licked my vein
I hold on

I thought something i never heard nor known
I see the paper is torn and it's just lying in the basket on the corner of your room
She doesn't need
She doesn't need any poem, any love spell
She knows what is she needed
And i'll try to provide
But she doesn't need any help
She's too prestige
She doesn't need
And i let she be

ERRATIC MINDS ON MY PATH

ERRATIC MINDS ON MY PATH

Just look at my path, the way i'd walked is written by failure and worst
The next step that i'm afraid to step on is a deep abyss
1 more further second makes me realise that i'm nothing
And more time makes me more nothing

I want u to pull the trigger, aim my head
Blow it up, let me sleep forever
Believe me i'm okay, and you'll okay

Let the tears drip with the memories
A friend can fill you
A book can make you not alone
When you're thinking the numbers and figures
You comfort with your own task
And left me away
Honestly there's a little regret, but i don't mind
Cause i won't let it command me
Any order can push me anymore?

Let me sleep to forget who i am awhile
Or let me use the drugs or venom which could kill me

He will look after you
And i'm losing my control of my own arms
Oh baby...everyone knows you over their head
The mostly doesn't know who i am

Will it come tonite?
I can't sniff anything
My feeling was in snare
Where there's kitten snarl, My snarl

Just do all you wanted
I'll be here or not it doesn't give affect
My last will to hug you, embrace you
Taste the taste of your little lips
Sorry i'm just a man that also have a lust
I'm lust of you, i desire you

Thousand of sorry won't change any thing
I just wanna you smile forever
And don't smile upon me when you're inside's crying

For you eternity
I'll set the fate free
And believe in God's beautiful plan

And this erratic feeling i drop of in this f**k*d note

'I know no one could finish this, cause it's erratic'

NIGHT

Night
I'm the night
City doesn't sleep
There are lamps and lights glowing
In my collapsed deep heart
I just sit down in the end of corner of sidewalk
And i know smoke of city will embrace
Lonely man in the rush of man and citizen
Every steps that tapping beside me make me harder to find God
Will be the smoke and mist over?

Then i running to the fly over
To catch my ride, catch my way to home
Where i can sleep without pain
Million lamps glow everytime
But i passed through to high way
This is shining high way

Do you think i'll find it?
Distinction of despair and passion
You got the gold one
And the high world above
Like you always above me
Bless my soul, be my bone

Your high life devaste the time of mine
And city dawn won't come true
And all of the voices of rude
Believe me too
One poor man cry alone
That he tried to apply a job
And he's rejected
He ran to fly over to meet me

Where we will run til the edge
Edge of night

I WON'T CRY

I WON'T CRY

I running from you & him
Cause you two don't
Let a space for me
I won't bother
A true lovers
And please go on
You don't have to notice me

I won't cry
Cause you'll be happy
You'll get bliss with him
I'm not deserved
I'm just rusted stuff on your mind
The abandoned soul
But i won't cry
Cause you'll be happy next to him

Don't look back
Don't look at me
cause i won't say anything
So don't look back
I won't cry
So don't you look back at me
Just continue your life with him

There's any trigger you can pull to shoot
And there is aim to be shot, it's me
The victim of lie
There is bait you can bait to ocean, it's me
So you can get him
And be with him always

And when the time you&i won't meet anymore
You won't mind me...

Johm_M